Yesterday, I had a terrible day. I completely messed up. I did not react like me, I freaked out. I need to be able to figure out the best way to deal with this.

I want to remember that I am not going to lose my friend. How can I be comfortable with this friend getting a significant other, but not another friend… and by friend, I mean best friend.

I talk too much - yet I feel a large need to write out all my thoughts right now. I just can’t… I don’t know how.

I want to focus on someone else… I want to learn about someone else… I want a new friend to talk to…